21 March 2007 - 7:02 pm

Here are the thoughts I have running through my head that I think have been helping me lose weight:

Slimming Down

That's it. When I am doing something, and between thoughts, I will hear that refrain running through my head.

When I do, I just magnify it, become conscious of it, and amplify it until there is a new thought to be handled. I become aware of it several times a day, so I figure how many thousands of times is it in my head and I don't even know about it?

No wonder it is getting easier to not eat when a little hungry, but not worth it. I find myself a little hungry throughout the day and am fine with it. No coffee at the expensive coffee shop down the street recently. Less soda. No alcohol for a few days at least. Just none of that appeals.

The thing about depression for me, is I lose weight. There is always a positive to being depressed, in my mind.

That and my expected running into Mr. Electricity at some point at Coachella, and having lost some more weight and not having seen him for several weeks by that time, won't he feel silly for ever doubting I could do it? Where was that confidence in my abilities he is supposed to have for me as a friend? I never doubted I could, I just wasn't particularly motivated when someone whose opinion I respect says I can't/haven't and won't do it says I'll never change. Well, with that much support, and me repeatedly asking for him to remark somewhat encouraging on anything positive he hears me say or sees me do in regards to my health and well-being, and he not doing anything of the sort, why indeed bother? Especially when he has seen me do exactly that more than once since we have known one another. Given that, why would he doubt I couldn't do it again?

Whatever. Whatever. Whatever.

Slimming Down.